After embarrassing Rob for a lifetime I start looking for Juliet. She's about to leave the party when I stop her. I try to apologise for everything but as I continue talking, I think I'm making it worse. She tells me all the things we did to her, from starting rumours about her to hacking her Yahoo account and sharing her private e-mails. But then she really starts telling me her friendship years with Lindsay. When they were little they were best friends, they did everything together; but Lindsay changed when her parents started fighting. Juliet and her with stay to sleep together and because of the screaming they would built a fort. Lindsay always tried to make the best out of everything but soon after Juliet ''fell asleep'' she would cry very hard at night. Her depression became so bad she even started wetting the bed yet Juliet never said a word. Then in fifth grade they went camping and Lindsay peed and when the teacher asked who did it Lindsay terrified pointed at Juliet, and Juliet being a good friend just let it go but from that day on everything changed, and the truth is that Lindsay is afraid of Juliet. But that doesn't changed the fact everything I've said to Juliet doesn't matter. After talking she heads outside and I follow her and this time I didn't get the chance to save her, she just threw herself at a truck.
As usual the cops interrogate me and after that I drop Ally, Elody and Lindsay home. Then at last I get the chance to spend some time with Kent while he takes me home. Even though I have no future with him time and space stops when I finally kiss him, it is wonderful.
After that I'm falling through darkness until I open my eyes and I find myself in a peaceful and calm place. Then I wonder it is sad how we don't know when we are doing the last time of something, because if we did we wouldn't let go. The last day of my life I told my mom See ya later and head to school like any other day, that's what makes it special. At lunch I finally break up with Rob and later I give Kent a rose. Later in the afternoon my friends and I prepare for the party as usual and we end up all hugging each other and saying ''till death tears us apart or even then'' and even though is just words for me it means the world.
At the party again I kiss Kent and my whole body is filled with excitement. Butterflies are a hurricane inside my stomach, and my heart beats like there wasn't enough time. But the moment has to end when I run again through the woods to find Juliet but this time Kent, Ally, Lindsay and Elody are coming after me. When I reach Juliet she tells me she can't be fixed but that isn't true, throughtout this week (sort of) I've truly changed, I have found out people I have living my whole life with are complete strangers and some aren't. I have discovered there is always hope for everyone we just have to believe in it. But Juliet just won't listen and before I can talk to her ''wings'' lift her up and carry her in from of the van that's approaching but this time I have saved her. Juliet is rolling to the other side of the road safe and sound and I finally found peace.
''Maybe it's impossible to change (Oliver, 381.)'' In a part in the book Sam has lost complete faith in her and thinks everything she has done is for nothing, but that's completely wrong. Throughout the book Sam discovers how she can become a better person and how she is capable of changing but the path to something will always be hard that's why the clue to change is for that person to be completely willing to and learning to let go the past. ''Sometimes I'm afraid to go to sleep because of what I'm leaving behind'' (Oliver 422.) When I read this quote it makes me think of how hard people hold on to some things. How people tie their happiness to things that won't last forever and later on are sad about it. In life we need to learn to appreciate things in the present because they won't last forever and to hold our feelings to the present and keep the memories for knowledge. This book is wonderful, I wouldn't ever imagined a book with such a sad ending would be so inspirational and full of vitality. Sam learned her lesson the hard way but she found happiness. I admire the strength she had throughout the book and how even though it were her last days she tried so hard everytime.
Late at night after eating dinner with my parents and meeting Julie's little sister and seeing how similar they are I find myself thinking about Juliet. I can't let her die, I know how death is and not a single bad thing in life is bad enough to kill yourself. Therefore I silently slip out of the house in my pijamas and drive to Juliet's house. At night the city looks really weird, everything is so silent and calm, unlike the morning were wives are kissing goodbye to their husbands and kids running to the bus. It's almost midnight when I ring the doorbell at her house, it takes sometime for someone to answer but then a woman with sleepy eyes and a bathrobe opens it. She asks me why am I here and the only thing I tell her is that I need to pick up a very important assignment for school, but she tells me Julie's out. Then after sometime I figure it out I''l have to go to the party. One or two miles away from Kent's house I park the car and decide to make my way through the woods, but it is freezing outside. Twenty minutes later I arrive at Kent's and I look like a mess, I've got dirt everywhere, I'm wearing pyjamas and my hair is with knots everywhere but I don't mind; my only objective is finding Juliet but I arrive too late she escaped through the bathroom window. But I realise she is probably walking because she has no car so I make my way through the woods again and after a long time I see her sitting on the side of the road and approach to her. I even offer her to take her home or mine but she just says it is too late. Then we see a car approach and before I can even move Julie throws herself at her car!! The car goes into the woods and then I see that it is Lindsay’s Range Rover!! The first time we crashed it was Juliet what made us go into the woods. I’m speechless, after the cops arrive and everything is ''cleaned up'' Kent takes me to his house, he serves me hot chocolate and gives me his room. Then, the last thing I remember about that night is kissing him.
The next day my mother wakes me up and I'm happier than usual, today I'll save Julie's life and mine.
I reach school and head to the nursery were all the roses are arranged. First I take out my rose from Rob and then spend forty bucks in a rose bouquet for Juliet, the valogram says ''from your secret admirer''. At lunch I'm only thinking about Juliet she threw her rose away or what?! And now she disappeared from the cafeteria I look for her everywhere but she's gone, I guess I'll just have to look at her in the party. Later in the night we reach the party and the only thing in my mind is Kent but then Rob appears. He'll pay for treating me so wrong
At the start of this chapter and after many different outcomes on Julie's death; Sam decides to do good and save Juliet and she says ''Maybe she's my ticket out.'' ( Oliver, 306)
and the only thing that came to my mind was the purpose of being a good person isn't just doing good but not expecting anything back. The moment you want something back it means what you are doing is for yourself.
''There's only one thought revolving around and around and around in my head; the flash of white just before we pin-wheeled into the yawning mouth of the woods, Lindsay yelling something I couldn't quite make out.
No sit or shit or sight
Sykes'' (Oliver, 326.)
At the start of the book the four friends had a car crash and now I finally understand the reason why they crashed. Life is like a circle everything you do will always come back. The four friends were mean to Juliet therefore she decided to kill herself and took them with her. In life we have to control our action because one way or the other it will come back
At first when I started reading this book I hated it but now that Sam has changed everything is better. It is wonderful how people can learn their mistakes and change but still dying isn't the right way to learn it. People have to reflect on their actions for the best
