February 12, Cupid Day

I wake up the next morning and the dream starts again, it is still February 12, what is going on around here?? A double deja vu? I think I''ll just have to miss school, stay all day in pijamas while I freak out, it's not like it is THE most important day and I have already lived it (I think) so anyways whatever.... Few hours later... Even though I told my mom I was ''sick'' she makes me go to school but I make her drop me at the .22 mile parking lot, I'm not letting anyone see what car my mom drives... In chem the sophomore angel-girl drops Robs valogram with a rose ''Luv ya'' what is that!? Then I head towards the cafeteria and I get into a little fight with Rob and later meet with the girls and while talking to them I realise if there is no party, there will be no accident and BOOM, my life will come back and I will wake up in a hospital room with all my friends, family and Rob. It is difficult to convince the girls but at last we decide to have a sleepover at Ally's. On seventh period Lindsay and I ditch class and have a great time at TCBY (The Country's Best Yogurt) and then almost get caught at the Smokers Lounge.
Later in the night, my friends and I are having a blast, but every good thing must come to an end and for us it ended with Mrs. Harris (Ally's mom), we had to turn off the music and go to sleep. Now its 2 am and someone's phone is buzzing, then we hear Ally's mom come down and as we open our sleepy eyes we see her with a really serious face. Elody turns the lights on and we gather around Mrs. Harris and she says, ''Remember Juliet Sykes?'' and we are like yeah so what? ''Well, I just got a call from one of our neighbours and told me she just killed her face.'' Our faces loose their color and words fade away from us, except for Lindsay that doesn't seem to care about this. Then I wonder, was this our fault? I mean Lindsay did made her life impossible by calling her Mellow Yellow for supposedly wetting the bed at camp in fifth grade but that is so not new but on the other side Lindsay has made the whole school hate her but it is only because she's a freak, but still....... 
I start to walk away from the couch and tell Lindsay I am going to the bathroom but actually head to the attic, there I find Ally's old yearbooks and start when we were all in first grade and find Lindsay's class, and there it is Juliet and Lindsay shinning together like best friends. Then I check for second grade and the same, both of them together; third grade Lindsay and Juliet matching outfits; fourth grade Lindsay and Juliet holding hands; but then fifth grade, Lindsay emanating light and happiness and Juliet hidden in one of the corners with her hair covering her face. The year Lindsay started Mellow Yellow rumour!!!

Friendship is part of life, and I think it is really important for people to have true friends. In the book when Sam says, ''I'm pretty sure I  know what she's thinking, though I would never say it outloud. Lindsay, Ally, Elody and I are as close as you can be, but there are still some thing we never talk about (Oliver, 106.) I wonder what is the point of having friends if you can't talk about anything? but as well I understand some things are private and personal.

As we get deeper into the book Sam discovers she is sort of dead or dying and she says  ''It's no what I imagined death would be like-not what I imagined would come afterward-but then again it's not like there's anyone around to tell you about it ( Oliver, 132.) I infer her day of death will be repeated until she finds peace.

Sam again, now really no kidding am I really dead? Come one!! I'm or was seventeen, there are/were many things I didn't go the chance to do, this really shouldn't be me. I can't believe it happened.